About My Mission

A Mission I’ll Pursue Until My Last Day

At the start of 2022, my life completely changed. To be more precise, my perception of life. What changed exactly? I started seeing the mind and the world we live in for what they truly are. That resulted in many changes that literally took place overnight (though the groundwork was laid long before). I stopped dwelling on negative thoughts, I developed infinitely more compassion for every single being, even the ones who have harmed me or mistreated me, I stopped watching porn, I stopped getting lost in YouTube rabbit holes, movie rabbit holes, and I started experiencing a happiness that has never ever left me since that moment. A happiness that remained unaffected by whatever else happened in my life and that far exceeded anything I had ever experienced before. It was always there in the background, even in the midst of unwanted situations. I’ve managed to nurture this happiness, despite the vicissitudes of life, career and financial difficulties, and physical struggles that prevent me from going out like regular people because I can’t sit without pain (due to an accident). Yes, I can’t do the most normal thing in the world. Everybody takes it for granted. Yet, I’ve never ever been happier.

I clearly see how to develop this happiness further. Happiness that’s completely independent of anything external. That’s exactly the opposite of the common perception we have of happiness. Our whole lives we try our best to get the things we want, spend time with the people we love, have a meaningful career and family life, and shape anything else according to our wishes. We put ALL our happiness in the hands of others and in external events and situations hoping that they will behave in the way that we want. So when anything happens in any of those areas that don’t line up with our wishes, unhappiness arises. More often than not, we point our finger outwards blaming either someone else or some external event. The problem is not there on the outside. It is right there in our own mind. It’s the perception we hold in our own mind. Our thoughts and feelings arise according to that perception. My mind never dwells on negative things anymore, because that perception has changed.

Because of the incorrect perception we always need to ensure to have, keep and maintain everything around us in a certain way. While it is important to acknowledge our responsibilities in caring for society, the environment, and our family, the issue lies in the fact that our happiness becomes completely dependent on these external factors. Consequently, we continuously strive to attain happiness—we find ourselves constantly seeking something outside of ourselves or remaining vigilant for external circumstances that can provide temporary relief from the feeling of unsatisfactoriness or unhappiness. We are searching because we want to be happy. When you want to be happy, un-happy becomes the default state. If that sounds far-fetched, let me ask you this:
How would you feel if you had no more work, your loved ones died, and/or your health fell apart? Does your happiness not depend on these things?

If that’s too much, let’s consider for a moment the little things in life. After all, It’s the little things in life that make us happy, as the “saying” goes. Why do we go out with our friends? Why do we want to watch a movie, or listen to music? Why do we go to a party, have a trip to the museum, go out in nature, or go on a holiday? Don’t we do those things because we believe they contribute to our happiness? Why else would we do any of these? That means we’re always trying to be happy because you’re either happy or you’re trying to be happy. In other words, the feeling of happiness that we want always needs to be sought somewhere. Therefore, a “lesser state” is our normal or default state of mind. A mind that is never truly satisfied.

What if you could be happy no matter what happens? A happiness that surpasses any previous feelings of joy you’ve ever known? A sense of calm and serenity in which you can truly find refuge?

I may not know much about you but what I do know is this: From the moment you entered this world, your innate pursuit has always been to seek happiness. But to this day, your happiness still relies on how the world around you behaves. And it never quite behaves in the way you want, does it? And there’s always that feeling that manages to surface once in a while, that something is not completely right or that something’s missing.

Since the profound shift in my mind and the experience of unconditional happiness, I have felt immense compassion toward others. I feel it’s my responsibility to share this in the best way that I can, until the day I die. I know I have many limitations, and I know that many will not bother listening to what I have to say (I’d be a little surprised if many people even manage to read this far in). However, it’s not a matter of choice. I simply HAVE TO pursue this. And I can’t charge a dime, because everyone has a right to know. I honestly don’t care if you’re my mother, my wife, my friend, or an absolute stranger. It is a moral obligation I have to fulfill.